What light through yon window breaks?

I begin to get a glimmer, just a glance perhaps of some light shining through the haze that has been swirling in my mind. For several years now my whole life has been in turmoil. I have been confused and bewildered. I thought I was meant to be a devoted husband, father, and grandfather. I thought that was my “place.” That was what I strived to be. But somehow, it just didn’t work out.

Just follow along…

“As the years go by, the destructive principle inevitably works its way into human beings. They cannot overcome it, but they can nevertheless slow down its effect and, above all, learn to make use of the period of old age that is setting in. When we lose our strength and our physical abilities, we have to tell ourselves that now is the time to seek other occupations, other sources of joy. Whatever the conditions, there is always something we can do, and if we are deprived of our physical energy we must seek to turn inwards, delving deep to tap that spring of spiritual energies within, which is inexhaustible.

If the principle that allows beings to grow and flourish did not meet with opposition and obstacles, humans would be lost. Yes, if old age and illness were not there to set limits, a great many people would become monsters! But we all know that the path we are on ends at only one place: death. In this respect, all men and women are equal. So, we all have to admit defeat, be modest, reflect, become wise and find, if we can, the path leading to God.”  — Omraam Mikhaël Aïvanhov